Uncomfortable

Uncomfortable such a quiet word. In the dictionary or dictionary.com defines it as-

un·com·fort·a·ble

   /ʌnˈkʌmftəbəl, -ˈkʌmfərtəbəl/ Show Spelled[uhn-kuhmf-tuh-buhl, -kuhm-fer-tuh-buhl] Show IPA

–adjective

1.

causing discomfort or distress; painful; irritating.

2.

in a state of discomfort; uneasy; conscious of stress or strain.

My sense of feeling is quite odd. Just some certain people make me really uncomfortable. Like take my boss for instance no offense to her, nice lady but every time I'm around her, I'm aware she could make my life a living nightmare. Or she could at least shift my mood swings. This is not the first time I've felt this way. I work for nutritionist its not really a real job but it makes me feel useful. Anyway I was in "My Office" coloring ( don't ask) she came in plying for the other computer. I was listening to music, I muted as soon as she got to work on the other computer.A couple minutes later she of course told me it was fine if I listened to music. I was embarrassed, so I gave the excuse I was getting ready to turn it off anyway.Stupid.

Other people I feel uncomfortable around. Boys mostly and by that I mean boys I like. Al tough there is this one boy who lately I have been feeling quite comfortable around him. I feel like if he would let me I could be myself for once. Don't worry, nothing will happen but its nice to know and to feel that way again.

Chili feed at church

So, today we had a chili feed at church. It was for a bunch of adults at our church raising money to see both my sisters in Bolivia. Well it was pretty cool. I hate chili but they had hotdogs too, so it all turned out okay. Not to mention my mom had to make a two layer chocolate cake all day yesterday, it tortured my father and I because we couldn't eat it. So after church I finally got some...it was good.

It was sad though being with everyone from Youth Group and realizing that I might not be doing this for much longer. I'm kinda hoping I fail the entrance exam and UW-Barren decides they don't want me anymore. I feel like I'm doing what everyone else has done in my life...left. Please pray for me.
Lindsey

Freash start!

That's right here goes. I'm jumping off the edge of the pool head first and I don't care where I land. In the past year well let's just say it hasn't been best for me. I mean December through February was great then it went downhill from there. It took me a while to get back on my feet, not to mention I've needed alittle help. But never the less here I am looking to go forward with my life. In January I will be going to UW-Barren in Rice-lake for two years of college. Then who knows whats next all I know I'm ready. I'm ready to move on with my life in full strife. I'm really ready to move out and hopefully stay away from Fall Creek a little bit. So watch me go.....