Woah thats not me!

Yeah that's right. We need to keep Lindsey away from all energy drinks.  You see Today is Sunday today I am supposed to do something brave and take a risk by doing... something. Yeah not going to say what that thing is maybe I will someday but for now it stays quiet. Anyway so yesterday  Saturday morning to be exact I decide I'm really nervous so why not take the edge seriously thats all I wanted to do. NOT a good idea. I get a vault, okay so heres the right time to drink a vault  when you have finals and have no motivation to them or when you have a cold and you are at a concert. Now I became a crazed lunatic  I was laughing at everything probably not saying the most sensible stuff. It got worse so I got tired around 11:30 great at-least I'll be able to sleep now. Wrong because I woke up around 2:00 got a text message from Jessie we texted for like an hour couldn't go back to sleep after that. Not that I wanted to, Mp3 player attached to my head for the next three hours as I prance around the room. It finally dies around 4:40 so I decide to try to lay down and go to sleep. I don't fall asleep until 5:00 but I wake up at 6:00. My head feels really light almost as if it is a balloon. My body feels numb just like I wanted the only bad thing I feel nippy.  You know how sometimes you can tell when you're crabby? You just feel mad even-though nothing bad has happened to you. The people you're around it seems as though everything they say is offensive to you. Yeah that was me and my parents who have been really great to me lately. First I bit off my mother's head but actually I said that to her " Bite off my head why don't you?" She just kind of stood there starring at my dad like ok. Then I did it again but in my defense she was kind of being pushy. Thats when I realized I'm going to crabby today because of lack of sleep. So yeah Drinking that vault was my own mistake, I can't blame my insomnia on somebody else. I kind of felt like a selfish princess which is basically what I am. But really there's a nicer side to me I can really be a good person sometimes anyway. So I don't know if I want to take a risk when I'm in a bad mood like this. I'm afraid I'll say some really mean things. Wouldn't surprise me if I did.

Being crabby only happens to me sometimes but when I am you do not want to be around me. so after my attacking of the rents I went up to my room and started to of course punch at my punching bag. It actually felt pretty good but then I remembered I should probably go to god in times of anger. So I started to pray about it and ended up finding this verse it made me laugh.  I can't find it now but I'll be sure to let you know what it is if I see it again. Only god knows the real me and as long as him and me are together I'll be alright. Everything is possible through god.

Love

Lindsey