Burger blast 2009!

I'm really tired So I probably won't write very much. Went to the Burger blast tonight. Let me explain we have this thing called the Burger blast at our church where we cook and serve a meal of burgers and french fries to make money for various fundraisers. After school I just wanted to go to my room get rough with my new punching bag and go to sleep not go to some church fundraising event. I didn't think I would have a very good time plus I didn't want to be around no friendship guy who pretends I don't exist. turns out I went had a 'blast' and no friendship guy went MIA so I didn't have to worry bout that.

The kitchen was hectic but very fun.I kinda felt like superwomen getting all these beverages and putting them on servers trays. I told Jessie about my disturbing dream She laughed kind of and said it wasn't uncommon. I will not be telling you this one even though I would like to just to see your reaction It would be inappropriate so no.Its one of those dreams where you wake up and your like "woah how did that happen?"

Anyway its late and I want sleep so bye for now..

Lindsey

Breakthrough or breakout?

Today in Interper. Comm. things got a little too personal for me. I guess sometimes the skeletons come of the closet well that was today for me. Not everything came but some pretty serious stuff was found out about me. I want to keep this entry hush hush but I just had to write some of it down because I was thinking about it all day. I said this blog would be about my personal life but I meant love life not stuff I've dealt with in the past. So I'm keeping quiet about what what Jeff,Matt, and Mr. Vandong found out about me today. I'm also keeping quiet about the disturbing dream I had last night the bad thing was it was partly about reality. It wasn't the worst I've had but still it was hard for me. 

I don't know how the whole thing came out Mr. Vandong just started asking me questions and I couldn't just sit there and lie. After that not much happened I yelled at my friend for being stupid because she was. Mike tried to make me feel better about gym "oh I should of picked you" well its a little too late for that. I'm just so sick of being the last person picked for once I'd like to be someone's first pick. I may suck but who cares its just a stupid game. What ever happened to taking joy in painful times. I guess I'm not in pain I'm just overly annoyed.

Signing out 

Lindsey

4 a.m

Its an hour before I have to go to school so I write again. I realize I write in here almost everyday I'm sorry for that but I have so much to say. I'm saying you have to acknowledge all of it most of it is crap but it could be interesting I've changed alot in this past year. Mostly I've learned that Christ heals any broken heart it just takes alot of time. James 1-2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers whenever you face trials of many kinds.

So today I woke up at four 3:57 to be exact. I had no idea why god would choose to wake me up so early or why I couldn't sleep last night. Ok well maybe I had a little idea. I didn't know what to do so I prayed our youth pastor always told us if he woke real early he would pray. Thats what I did. I've been using the word confused alot and asking god alot of questions. Sometimes I don't know weather he's telling me to go for it or just ignore it. I figure if I keep telling its not true it won't be. Then there's this guy at my church WHO I DO NOT like I'm just frustrated. We used to be kind of awkward friends now not so much. I'll admit it might be partly my fault. I've said some really stupid stuff to him and yes this is the guy I met at the football game that I embarrassed deeply. I also told him if ever needed any to talk too... well you know the rest. He's a guy what did I expect him to say "Ok thanks your so sweet Lindsey" lets face it they have different minds then girl's do. Though he didn't have the nicest response it was expected for a guy.

I just hate when people ignore me I'd rather they spat in my face. Atleast the problem would have been confronted. At the youth group super-bowl party we were fighting. I told Jessie to tell him to shove it. Boom another slash from Lindsey Mickelson folks. anyway I kind of want to go to school so I can just stop thinking about it.

Lindsey

I saw a face ( Him )

 Ok go with me here I wanted to write about seeing someone I used to like without saying any names. It sounded stupid when I said over again in my head in blog form. So I thought why not make into a little story. It would only be one blog entry long unless you really liked it. It really happened no lie. Just thought this would be fun.

Heather drove Rachel and I into Eau Claire. The streets seemed narrowed, I gazed out the window glancing at people out in the harsh weather.I began to note in my head the different cars blues ones. white ones, all different sorts. We get so close to the Eau claire campuses. We get to the beginning of the interstate when I see the outside of the car and I face I recognize my eyes widen as I take in his face. I talked to him a little over the summer maybe told him a little too much. Pushed him away I tended to do that to people. We passed the car he hardly noticed i was in the silver car. I smiled because as we passed the car I felt nothing my heart had been hardened. 

Toga day

Sno-fest week was this week at Fall Creek High-school. Monday I wore pajamas, Wednesday It was cartoon day so I dressed as Zero the dog from the Nightmare Before christmas,and today I attempted to wear a queen size sheet as a toga to school.It was pink with small dots on it Mrs. Watters and Mrs. White helped me at first then I had to take it off for gym, Cross country skiing yeah not fun. I was sweating like a pig when I finished. Its supposed to be winter you know zero degrees weather I'm supposed to be freezing when I come in from the course not drops of water rolling down my face. Oh well I do prefer to stay warm.

So after that I had to figure out how to put back on my toga. I decided to just walk around and look a fool until someone offered assistance. Alissa Roberts finally tried to help me with the pink blanket only making matters worse. Had to go to World History and Inter. Comm. like a colored floppy thing what fun! Interpersonal was quite interesting. We still finishing sharing our childhood pasts when Jeff decides to bring up Matt's girlfriend. Matt gets offended and throws his clip board at both me and Jeff. Luckily neither of us got hit it was still scary, it was all a misunderstanding Jeff was defending Matt to his girlfriend. I'm finding myself to be enjoying the class although it gets kind of personal. I don't have a problem with being personal but I'm afraid I'll reveal too much. Its too bad I'll have to wait untill Monday to have another class.

signing out for now 

Lindsey