Behind in dream journaling

I've realized I've updated alot since the last time I've been gone, so that's good. I plan to write alot more since Christmas is coming up and there will lots of exciting events to write about. Like for instance The old fashioned Christmas program that I will be singing in and of course our churches Christmas program which I also got roped into.

It's a known fact that everybody has like atleast a thousand dreams at night. Most people don't remember them of course. Well you see, I try to make it so I can remember my dreams. See I'm kinda obsessed. Infact I have a journal that I record all my dreams in. Actually I've had two and a half. I'm in the half one rightnow. It sucks though because the journal I'm writing in is not very good for writing in if you know what I mean. But anyway so like last week I had this dream about Ruth Hurd going to prom with me and that her mom was some beached mammoth, yea not gonna lie, it was beyond weird.

But eversince I've been neglecting to write it down. I don't know if its cause I've been really tired or because I just don't want to hand write. Oh well! I guess I will just have to write it down rightnow.

The first snow fall..

Hey blog buddies! So yesterday and today it snowed alot.Christmas is my favorite holiday but I strongly believe its not Christmas without snow. So when Jessie texted me last night telling me Fall Creek would be cancelled because of of some white flurries, my heart jumped a little bit. Then this afternoon she texted me again telling me play practice was also cancelled. At first I replied with "Oh thats just horrible!" but inside my head I was really screaming "YES YES!!!".

Now there are some obvious reasons why would be estatic that practice was cancelled. Could be that I wouldn't have to have that certain person avoid me for the fourth hundred time ( I will not be typing their name down even though I have before). Two I can watch Glee live. Or if my parents are going out to eat I can go with them. I'm pretty sure those are some really good reasons not to go to practice tonight. Anyway I just wanted to say how thankful I am that god created snow...

Lindsey

Where will I be in the future?

I know what's with all these questions as titles? That in itself was its own question. I don't know why I keep asking questions for my titles. Maybe because it fits my personality? If someone else knows the answear please feel free to tell me. So this past year I graduated from High school and figured out that I have no idea what I'm supposed to do with the rest of my life. This past year I relaized alot. First that I have it really good and so I should stop complaining. Second that I liked youth group ALOT.

So, no I don't exacty have a plan.Rightnow I'm just leaving it up to god. But apparently doing that that isn't exactly doing the right thing. I just know god wants me to stick around here, I don't why but I'm going to listen to him. Truthfully I don't know what the future holds, I'm just sick of people judging me for not knowing what I want rightnow.

Lindsey

To trust or not to trust people?

Hi, so I'm back from the newly discovered dead and I promise I will write more frequently. Especially since my life is just ever so exciting ( not really ). I don't know why I didn't write for all these months. I was kinda busy, I was in a play and am now currently in one. But I think the main reason why I didn't write was because I didn't really know what to say.Lets just leave it with some stuff that happened over the summer, since I last wrote. I didn't really want to publicize what had happened quite yet, well actually I tried a few times but gave up. Rightnow I'm still figuring out how I want to deal with the certain situation.

But I won't be talking about that in this blog entry. Today I wanted to talk about trust and why it is so hard to come by. First, of all there's all this crap with Tiger Woods. Ever since I was like ten I always thought Tiger was a pretty decent guy, so yea he's not exactly a christian but I was always told just because someone is not a christian does not make them a bad person. Plus I always thought he was the hottest gulf player/whatever ever. Recently as many of you know he's had an affair with his wife. I heard they are going to try to work things out. This past summer my friend,let's just say was treated "badly" by her boyfriend,anyway long story short she ended up dumping him. From what I heard he was a jerk so she had every right to do that. But Tiger still seems like a good guy to me. I mean he apologized to his fans and the fact that he's still trying to work things out seems geniune to me. I just think its weird that I don't think Tiger is a horrible person. Then it occured it me, its probably because I have some sort of trust issues.

It's true Lindsey Mickelson has trust issues. No not the kind where you don't tell close people stuff that maybe you should. Its the kind where no matter who the person is you tell them everything even if at some point they tell the whole world. Yeah and it's happened to me before. So still liking Tiger is just step one. I don't really know if it's right or wrong? The trusting not the cheating. I don't know,my dad seems to think he's still a good guy too. But yeah just thought I would share my feelings with everyone who reads this thing.

umm anyway I hope I update some more. I figure all I need is nerve.
Lindsey

Happy 4th of July!

It's finally here! Firworks! Good food! Family!You name it I bet the forth has it... The burning question is what am I doing on the forth? Well rightnow the twins are over well rightnow there in Augusta with my mother at a quilt show. But the point is they were here and they will be later. Later we are (as in our family) supposed to be going to the Kristufek's for firework's. I still think thier kind of weird but whatever.

So I wanted to apologize for my last entry. I realized after I wrote it I had gone a little too far. I'm sure you didn't want to hear about my freaken love life. Sadly to report I will probably be sharing more aka whining. Anyways I'm tired and I feel extremly nauses so I'm going to take a nap.

Love
Lindsey

My new laptop

Hi, Hows everybody doing today? Well the two people who read my blog anyway. so finally I'm typing on my new computer,yes a laptop. That's how you spell laptop right? Because if it isn't please correct me. If you have read my couple of last entry's you've probably noticed that my grammar isn't perfect. I guess what I'm trying to say is I suck at editing things but I think I'm a pretty dang good writer. Back to my new laptop it comes a equipped with a webcam that'
s pretty awesome. Also I got sims 3 because let's face it that game rocks. So life with a new laptop is a pretty good life.

Well as much as I hate when people publicize thier love lives. example A. E Taylor Swift a.k.a Joe Jonas break-up suck it up Taylor it happens btw still love your songs. I guess I really shouldn't be talking seeing how I got dumped over the phone and was pretty bitter over it. Anyway the big risk I was going to take was telling Nekoda hubbard how I felt. That's right he's the guy I've liked for a while he's mick. He was the guy at the football game who acted offensive when I claimed he wasn't my boyfriend. He was the guy who asked me but I said no because I was scared. So sunday I was going to tell him how I felt but somehow someway I couldn't go through with it. Could it be because he was avoiding me like fire does? Or is it because he's always around his guy friend? Or is it because I'm simply scared? I'd go with all three. In the morning everytime he'd walk by me I'd say something like ooo look at those pretty flowers, Kayla are those new glasses?, Or you can't forget the classic That was a funny joke Jessie. Both Jessie and Kayla were rolling their eyes at me. What can I say I'm just a coward. I could have told him at Youth Group but for some reason the words couldn't come out. I was on the same team for the game but everytime he stood next to me all I could do was stay silent. I think one time he did try to talk to me he said little and simple. All I said was " I'm sure you'll have fun." Wow really Lindsey. I know he doesn't like me back but atleast by telling him I would feel better. And if I keep staying in this little tight bubble I'm going to go INSANE. I swear I can tell everybody else besides him heres all the people that know Kevin, both my sisters, Rachel,Kayla, Abbie, Jessie, Chris Spang, and Braxton. Maybe he'll read this and then hey he'll know. Right just someone choke me now. Anyway I better simmer down because I break the computer.

Lindsey

Woah thats not me!

Yeah that's right. We need to keep Lindsey away from all energy drinks.  You see Today is Sunday today I am supposed to do something brave and take a risk by doing... something. Yeah not going to say what that thing is maybe I will someday but for now it stays quiet. Anyway so yesterday  Saturday morning to be exact I decide I'm really nervous so why not take the edge seriously thats all I wanted to do. NOT a good idea. I get a vault, okay so heres the right time to drink a vault  when you have finals and have no motivation to them or when you have a cold and you are at a concert. Now I became a crazed lunatic  I was laughing at everything probably not saying the most sensible stuff. It got worse so I got tired around 11:30 great at-least I'll be able to sleep now. Wrong because I woke up around 2:00 got a text message from Jessie we texted for like an hour couldn't go back to sleep after that. Not that I wanted to, Mp3 player attached to my head for the next three hours as I prance around the room. It finally dies around 4:40 so I decide to try to lay down and go to sleep. I don't fall asleep until 5:00 but I wake up at 6:00. My head feels really light almost as if it is a balloon. My body feels numb just like I wanted the only bad thing I feel nippy.  You know how sometimes you can tell when you're crabby? You just feel mad even-though nothing bad has happened to you. The people you're around it seems as though everything they say is offensive to you. Yeah that was me and my parents who have been really great to me lately. First I bit off my mother's head but actually I said that to her " Bite off my head why don't you?" She just kind of stood there starring at my dad like ok. Then I did it again but in my defense she was kind of being pushy. Thats when I realized I'm going to crabby today because of lack of sleep. So yeah Drinking that vault was my own mistake, I can't blame my insomnia on somebody else. I kind of felt like a selfish princess which is basically what I am. But really there's a nicer side to me I can really be a good person sometimes anyway. So I don't know if I want to take a risk when I'm in a bad mood like this. I'm afraid I'll say some really mean things. Wouldn't surprise me if I did.

Being crabby only happens to me sometimes but when I am you do not want to be around me. so after my attacking of the rents I went up to my room and started to of course punch at my punching bag. It actually felt pretty good but then I remembered I should probably go to god in times of anger. So I started to pray about it and ended up finding this verse it made me laugh.  I can't find it now but I'll be sure to let you know what it is if I see it again. Only god knows the real me and as long as him and me are together I'll be alright. Everything is possible through god.

Love

Lindsey